I Did It!



I “won” NaNoWriMo this November!

How did I win? By writing a 61,558 word first draft of a novel in a month. Yes. I did this while homeschooling my 8 year old, my 6 year old, and my 4 year old. I also have a 3 month old baby and an incredible wonderfully supportive husband, without whom I would never have been able to write 600 words, let alone 60k words.

So, I won. Now what?

For the past few days, I’ve been feeling flat and a bit down in general. After the crazy writing frenzy of the last month, I’m not sure what to do with myself now. Sure, there are plenty of things that need to be done, but there’s just something about having immersed myself in so much creative writing over the past month and now that’s lacking in my life.

That’s actually probably a large reason why I’ve started writing in my blog again. I need something to fill the void right now.

Really, what I should be doing is editing my novels – the 59k novel from last year and its sequel from this year. I have friends lined up to read my books. Apparently my premise sounds really interesting to several friends and they’re looking forward to reading what I have spent so much time working on lately.

Yet… I haven’t even started re-reading or editing. I’m not sure why exactly. It seems like such a daunting task really. I’m not very used to writing fiction and I’ve never attempted to edit something of this length before.

I’ve been reading about novel editing tips over the past couple days. We have plenty of printer paper that has one side used and the other blank and I’ve already decided that I’ll be printing off my novels using that paper. No worries about wasting paper at all – it’s recycling!

So, what’s holding me back? The fear of the unknown maybe? I think that I’m blowing this up out of proportion and that once I begin it’ll be fine. I love editing, generally speaking. I tend to be ruthless about typos and grammar and I enjoy nothing more than helping friends edit things that they’ve written, but somehow it seems different when it’s something that I’ve written.

I think that part of myself is worried that everything I wrote is just garbage. That there’s nothing decent in the entire draft. Then again, there’s no way on earth that I wrote 120k words of pure awfulness (I’m not being conceited – the odds of that kind of pure dreck would just be pretty slim) so there must be some good stuff in there. Maybe at least a few decent scenes or characters or plot points, if nothing else.

I’m just going to do it! I will print it off later today (yes, it is almost 2am right now) after a good night’s sleep and I will begin! I’m going to finish what I started and give my friends and myself an awesome story to read!


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